There is the old song (1995) call “I will Never Be” and the word of the song start off with “I will never be the same again, I can never return I’ve closed the door.” Some of the people I went to college with may remember this song. This was one that was played pretty regularly during chapel and even in meetings. This song has been playing through my mind recently. It made me think back to when I first heard this song and the transformation in my life that had already happened.
However, before the song was heard, another moment transformed my life in ways that are still felt some 23 years later. I remember the day so clearly. It was a humid and hot day in New Orleans and I was on my first missions trip. We were standing outside, we were all hot and sweaty and we had started to pray. Standing there, we started to pray for the city and the prayer the came from my heart was “break my heart for what breaks Yours.” Little did I know that this prayer would change the way I saw the world forever.
Here I am, some 20plus years later and the song again comes to mind. I begin to think about why this song is once again coming to mind. I don’t know what God is doing right now, but things are definitely stirring. There are so many things in my mind that i can’t even put it into words yet. What I do know is that God is in control even when I don’t understand it. The past few weeks, it seems as though something is brewing in me, the sermons my past has been preaching have been on point. All I know now is I need to trust that God is in control.