Here I Am…Send Someone Else

I don’t know about you, but often I find myself telling God “here I am, send someone else.” I tell Him that He must be mistaken in asking me to do things, or putting a passion on my heart. I might say something are you sure you don’t want to choose someone that actually enjoys speaking to people or that is comfortable in front of people. I ask God to just let me stay in the background, where people don’t see me or notice me.

I feel so much better when I read the story of Moses, who when he saw the burning bush said “Here I am.” (Exodus 3:4) and once God showed him what He was calling him to said “O my Lord, I am not eloquent, neither before nor since You have spoken to Your servant; but I am slow of speech and slow of tongue.””

(Exodus 4:10) and then again said “But he said, “O my Lord, please send by the hand of whomever else You may send.”(Exodus 4:13 NKJV). I wonder though, based on the rest of the story, what would have happened if Moses had just said yes? Yes, the Lord was gracious and gave him Aaron to speak on his behalf, but wasn’t Aaron the one that helped the people build the golden calf?

I know that God gave Moses some support, and Moses went on and brought the people out of Egypt. I wonder what would have happened if he had said yes and not argued, would the people have sinned as much? Would they have wandered as long? Then I wonder, what happens differently when I tell God to send someone else then me listening the first time. I can give God the same excuses as Moses, and explain logically why He should use someone else but God does not always follow our logic does He? Sometimes that is exactly why things work they way they do and lives are transformed, because our logic is not present.

So today as I work to catch myself before I tell God to send someone else I encourage you to be aware of the places you are telling God to send someone else. What are areas you tell God to send someone else? Let’s chat!